Out Of This

How do I get out of this

I’m sincerely asking 

Where do I go

Please tell me and

I’ll do it this time 

Really I’m not lying 

I am genuinely surprised 

when I look in the mirror

My eyes fill with tears 

that cloud my vision.

I am becoming blind

It is fuzzy around the edges

What did I do wrong

why does it feel that I did 

How do I get out of this

Please let me die  

with all of the love 

I used to believe in